i don’t want to be alive anymore but i’m too scared of not knowing what comes after death to kill myself lol

i’ve never been afraid of death because i’ve never thought about it in depth. but i just thought very suddenly about what i would do if my dog died which led me to be reminded of my own impending death and now the thought is all-consuming and i’m terrified and i don’t want to have to live with this new terror on top of all my other fears & anxieties so guess i’ll just fucking die